“Who is this woman yelling? It can’t be me!”
But I couldn’t stop it. [Read more…]
But I couldn’t stop it. [Read more…]
During our time in the NICU, we adjusted to a schedule. I still woke every 3 hours because I was trying my hardest to be able to nurse my babies when they came home. The constant struggle of dealing with nothing but a breast pump and a low supply was physically and emotionally draining. As if I didn’t feel guilty enough, I wasn’t making enough milk for my babies and they were having to supplement. It was a constant back and forth to a quiet lonely room to use a breast pump. I tried so hard to do right by my babies.
The best part of our schedule was when we actually went to the NICU to see them. We always wanted to do everything while we were visiting. We even asked that they only do bath time when we were there so that we could do it. My husband and I visited constantly and made sure to do it at the same time every day. This way the nurses knew when to expect us. It made us feel more involved and like we had a little bit of a say in our babies’ day.
While in the NICU we came to depend on the nurses. We quickly grew to love certain nurses and would make sure to visit during their shift. Those nurses are a rare gift and have a special talent for not only caring for preemies, but also their parents. They realize that we are fragile emotionally and need to be handled with care and ease. I am so incredibly grateful for the wonderful nurses that took care of my babies. It was hard to leave my babies, but at least I KNEW they were in the best care.
Today was a big day for Jayleigh Bug!
She just kept looking at herself in the mirror 🙂
She is such a little diva!
She got a cute bob cut. It is so cute!
And Jaxson got a handsome new cut too! We are going to let it grow out a bit 🙂
And a little throwback, here is Jaxson’s first haircut!
Look at all of that hair!
I can’t believe that they are growing up so fast. It seems like yesterday they were bald little butterballs! 🙂
Just wanted to share a fun day with y’all!
Have a great weekend!
To me, it isn’t a curse. It’s my life. And I love it! No matter how crazy the moments, they are my babies and I would do it all over again.
Each day is a new learning experience for me. I don’t think that God gave me twins because He knew I’d excel at raising them, but I know that He did know exactly what He was doing when He blessed me with them. On particularly rough days, I remind myself of this. I remind myself that the good outweighs the bad and that I can do this.
I can handle the highs and lows, the growing up, the responsibility, and the emotional toll parenting twins presents. I can do this because God is right here with me.
To all of the other mamas (and daddies!) reading this, I’m sure you can relate. I know we all have our good and bad days. There are somedays that we wonder if we can even do it at all. We are all in this together and we can do it! Which is why we should lift each other up instead of tearing each other down. Nursing vs. formula, co-sleeping vs. crib, homeschool vs. public school-who cares! We are all doing what God has called us to do, which is different for everyone-and that’s ok! As long as the children are healthy and well taken care of then it doesn’t matter the petty differences.
So I challenge all of you to take a moment and tell another parent that you think they are doing a great job. Who cares “how they do it”, just let them know that they are doing it well! A little encouragement can lift someone up in ways that we could never see and understand. We never know what kind of impact our words could have on someone else.